So I think I have definitely learned my lesson about certain people. I need to become more aggressive with how I talk to people & how I let them control me. I made a stupid decision recently & it turned out that that decision could have led me down an extremely dangerous path.
I was entirely too intoxicated. I couldn't really vocalize what I was feeling. I couldn't do much of anything, including walk on my own. I don't care if you spent money on me, you offered. I don't care if you like me, I don't have reciprocating feelings. Don't make me feel guilty about it. If I am NOT attracted to you, I'M NOT FUCKING ATTRACTED TO YOU. Plain & simple. More to the point, don't try & take advantage of me when I've had too much to drink. If I say "take me home," take me the fuck home. It wasn't a question, it wasn't a statement. It was a demand. I wanted to go home as fast as humanly possible. I didn't feel safe. You were too forward. You were too needy. You wanted from me what I wasn't willing to give.
And to be completely honest, if you hadn't taken me home, I don't think you would have given a damn if I was willing or not....that scared me the most.
