What's left?

I already have trust issues. I know that. I will probably never be able to trust ANYone for the rest of my life. I became okay with that. I am NOT okay finding things out that make me trust you less; especially when you are such a big piece of my life & I can't let you go. Why did you lie to me? Why do you continue to lie to me? Is this payback for when I did it to you? I lied about a habit that was hard to break. You've been lying about the feelings you've been having or have had for someone else. You had her in OUR bed. You slept next to her while I was gone. You told me you didn't. You PROMISED me that you wouldn't do that. You promised me that you DIDN'T do that. It's my fault for trusting you with that, I guess.